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now playing not to us
artist chris tomlin
mood blessed
"the cross before me; the world behind"
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festival of praise 2006 was pretty good, considering the fact that i haven't stepped into church for a long time. in the midst of all the praise and worship, i was gently reminded that God was there with us.
"when 2 or 3 are gathered in my name, i am there with them"
there was more than hundreds of willing hearts, and it felt good to be back in his presence, even if it's just for one night. & even if i wasn't quite sure about a lot of things in church anymore, but to be so close to him again, was good. that, i'm sure. Euge was there, beside me - having her heart touched also. evidentially. it's her hand that i'm going to hold on to, when i graduate from NYP, when i get out of army, when i enter University - also, when i return to church, and worship like i never had before - there she will be, right beside me.
although the day of Festival Of Praise was a little hectic, & i was halfbrain-dead from training and rushing, not to mention leaving my keys in Euge's bag. so i wasted 6bucks on cab fare, because i had to have her rush down and rescue me from being drenched in my own sweat and weariness while being locked out of my own house. but all was well. all IS well. =]
i don't think life has been the same since Monday. after realising so many things, the revelation was pretty inspiring.
friends like Constance are hard to come by, always managing to draw up a smile on my face with her words. 2 years had gone by, and i i used to think a big chunk of my life had be spent without her would've led this friendship to its extinction. it hasn't. i'm sorry for everything that i've put you through, those deceptions, though you know me well enough to see through it - i was just trying to find the right words and right time to put it across to you. =] you'll be the flower girl at my wedding, because you've always stood up for me - how should my wedding be any different?
also, Jolene who also, always manages to cheer me up when i'm not in the right mood. her comments are quirky, and different, and sincere. =] i'm beginning to realise the people who're important in my life, and as Euge said, "you've got a lot of good friends around you". it was a challenge, to begin to start treasuring them.
no more pussy-footing around.
exams are around the corner, & i should better start reflecting on my studies, 'lest i want to crash into failure at the bend. it felt good, to have started studying. to finally know stuff. or maybe it's just because you were beside me, and i felt more encouraged, motivated, and relaxed.
Godspeed. school in 2 hours time, and i'm having breakfast. hope i don't poop in my pants while giving my presentation.
9:24 AM
